This Was All My Idea From the Beginning

when i consider who You are

within little me

and how full You are

containing little me.

i must bow

to the heir of all things

to the Maker who made me

 and to Whom i am returning.

now, You are the Final Word

speaking through vocal cords

saying things like “count the cost;

is it worth it to gain the world

when your soul is lost?

store up treasure where moth and rust

will not destroy

and they will not be stolen

value things like i do

only i can take you (home).

even the spheres, spinning like records

around a star,

their time, place, near and far

is according to Me.

for should I choose,

I could wear them like jewelry

and dangle Jupiter, Mars, Neptune

on a string, letting their vibrating beauty extol Me.

(as it should be!)

but the lonely worlds

I chose rather to give them names

and treat them like sheep

that I lead in and out again

can you number them?

can you tell if one is missing?

I lead them to quiet streams, yes,

Even little infinite things like these.

could it be, that you would think to comprehend Me?

don't you see?

this was all My idea. i found you.

(not the other way around)

with bleeding hands

bruised chin

unbroken bones

crying breath

i found you out. 

And it was you who hid,

not Me.

I came to you,

from unimaginable heights

to uncomprehendable depths

I shrank,

and became little

without becoming less.

do you not see?

this was easy for Me. 

it's My world, and i'll do as i please

I AM the fashioner

a worldmaker

I burn with divine glory

a word from My lips

and things begin or cease

the incomprehensible written into comprehending

(and you thought you found Me?)

even when I carried the cross

I still carried the worlds in my pocket

was it a rouse that no one came

to my rescue?

it was by my command

thousands of jealous angels

didn’t come in and tear this world to shreds,

(and do you think this was

 a sort of indifference

that you could come

and “ask Me in”

oh, child, I came unbidden, 

unwanted, like a lamb led to slaughter…

don’t you think for a moment you found Me).

this was all My idea from the beginning.