in firelight
i gather near fire, toes warming and i watch hearthglow, oh, finally letting snow melt off my soul, i catch the shadows of future light, dancing in the dim, playing with darkness like an old friend, easy, unthreatened, unresistant, no mask, just dance and disappear and reillumine, radiant now, slow then fast, multifaceted and calm. prayer is so much easier when i stay. eyes reflect the forge from which we were made. and i just can’t shake this touch, this flame refracts, a look from nowhere, a glance through me, i’ve never been the same, satisfied and still hungry, in cold wastes i forget, but firelight pulls my mind, my eye, i can’t waste time not waiting in this embrace, me alone at dusk, me alone but never alone, finding me more myself and less my own, more myself and less and less alone. an’ i’m radiant with gratefulness, who knew every wish would find its latch, unlocked, and float like sparks into heaven. then i knew, right then, i knew You knew. Lord, my friend, this hearth, this haven, this forge where i was, and where i am now, it’s too good to be true. and in the inbetween, its just You me You. amen.